written @ 12:09 a.m. on July 02, 2002

p.s. Cuz u said those were fuckin' things...i deleted them at once.......yes, somehow u're right, i didn't do many things for u.......human beings are all selfish. selfishness, is a kind of human natures. we all think that we're the one who suffers, the one who shouldn't be blamed, the one that to be praised. but that's definiteyly not the case. when we let others control our emotions, we will juz blame and be angry endlessly. we'll think, "u're the one who makes me suffer! why u come here to do so?" then, at the same time, we're juz duckin' a very important responisibility out -- the reponsibility to make ourselves blithe. hey, does the other has the part to work for ur own happiness? NO! actually, we're juz admittin' the truth that we cant control ourselves, and to some extent, that we're beggin' others to come to control us. plz, the key to bliss is in ur own hand! u're the only one who controls ur own emotion. Bein' mature is to make others happy, give others felicity and take ur own responsibility! dun put pressure on others but to make others enjoyable so that others feel good to be with u. that's what i think after our conversation...... lastly, i've to apologise for my immaturity. i'll take back the key. the key of my own happiness........

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p.s.s. it's time for me to change. to be more mature.......

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