written @ 1:03 a.m. on July 11, 2002

I will ask myself, "do i mean what i say?" I found the answer is "No". Actually, I dun really know what i'm doin' at this moment. i juz cant figure out what i desire most, what i need most etc. Such a feelin' is depressin'! I would also, sometimes, hypnotize myself that I'm feelin' great, blissful, and wonderful. I know that's not a right attitude, but, you know, you're the one who holds the key of your own happiness. Noone is controllin' you........

I'm the only who leads myself to a beautiful life......

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Life is beautiful......only if you do want it to be one!

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