written @ 12:22 pm on 14.06.04

tonite my heart was broken suddenly. i read sth and i saw sth and it broke. i made it break myself you know? how wonderful.

i knew it would and i allowed it to happen. everytime i do it with tears.

if you dun want sth to befall, just dun speak them out please.

i can tell myself that fantasy is real and dreams can be materialised. but what i cant do is to deceive myself forever. i am not that stupid though i am never clever either.

p.s. thanks pistols, at least my heart doesnt have to break twice in one single nite.