written @ 12:17 pm on 21.12.04

i suddenly felt soooooo weak yesterday night. it was freakin' cold in the room and i did nothin' to make myself warm; i was hopin' the coldness would somehow make me stronger but it turned out to make me realise how useless i was. how long have i been dwandlin' my days and nights thinkin' how bad/ weak/ useless i am? i dun really remember. i truly am sorry for myself because i have done nothing to help.

i hope i can go for a get-lost walk soon to purify my thoughts. it helps.