written @ 12:04 am on 21.01.06

so finally it rains. i really wanna put on my wellington boots arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!
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i need to be myself. i am what i am. that's it. yet i don't know how to survive in a world like this if it is ineluctable to be unkind. i think i'm doomed to be the loser. maybe that's simply my nemesis. we gain thro' every little thing we pay. sadly i have nothin' to pay out.